celebrating immortality

about a certain event on a certain day earlier this month

never ever ever underestimate the effect of internet.

the certain event on a certain day earlier this month certainly showed that hate can spread faster than a speeding bullet (yes i was thinking of superman and how irrelevant he would be in a situation like this). Continue reading “about a certain event on a certain day earlier this month”

MPASI – my daily struggle

dulu saya suka heran lihat orangtua yang keukeuh nyuapin anaknya di mana aja, kapan aja. ato orangtua yang kayaknya selalu bawa sendok dan mangkuk, ngikutin ke mana si bocah pergi.

nasib manusia emang muter-muter aja kayak roda becak.
Continue reading “MPASI – my daily struggle”

you’re funny

in a way that only i know how. and you’re reckless, at least once in your life. it’s funny how all of it was once so meaningful and now so vague: like late-night texts and morning headaches. like the smell of damp tobacco and thinning hopes. like a dream crawling out of my window as dawn fell. we were okay, weren’t we?

Full circle

Here we are, my friend. On the final steps of our dark chapter. Or maybe it ended a long time ago when you said you’re sorry. A blurred photo of youth and ignorance drenched in the rain.

We didn’t think too much about it back then. We said yes to probabilities, and to hurting others. And as I brutally understand now: we’re humans and we make mistakes.

Good bye now, good bye. No more words are needed, I suppose, as we’ve come full circle. At last.

bulan tujuh

hampir delapan, malah. manusia kecil itu sudah tidak sekecil yang saya ingat. kenapa waktu seperti berjalan ngebut kalau kau jadikan perubahan bayimu sebagai ukurannya? Continue reading “bulan tujuh”

I bleed

For you, for us, for things I do not understand. For trying to stand up tall every single time. For forcing a smile when all I want is to curl up and swallow the bitter pill.

I bleed, yet this is how I do it. Silently. Behind you. Behind her. Because I know no other way.

They say this month is different. I agree. I’m skipping the hunger test, but as we all know, there is always another test. Right around the corner.

This time, I have no energy left to fight back.

first week

i love her.

and i am scared of many things.

please don’t judge. don’t be mean. think twice before commenting on my choices. stay away if you can’t help. be nice if you really want to help. if you think i’m selfish, go away. if you think you know better, go away.

mengingat manusia

saya rasa salah satu hal yang hilang dari kehidupan rutin di ibukota adalah interaksi dengan orang yang tidak dikenal.  Continue reading “mengingat manusia”

i don’t like him for many reasons

one of it is how he sees himself as someone who is better than most. Continue reading “i don’t like him for many reasons”

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